i can't stop crying

i hate how you always stand me up but more than that i hate myself for always believing in you! and btw, why do you always take everyone to MY favorite restaurant, OUR restaurant, without inviting me when i told you we should go days ago!?!

last night sheila was being all judgey and said that i "date down" and that i need to raise my standards... i'm pretty sure she was just talking about looks but that's not what i place value on. she's right though... i do need to raise my standards but in different ways.
i know what i'm worth and i'm worth much more than getting yelled and cussed at by an ex... especially if that ex nags me about spending time and how she loves me then turns around and treats me like shit in front of her friends and still expects me to be there for her.
haha, how sad that this scenario can apply to more than one of my ex girlfriends but, in this case, i'm not talking about the one who i see everyday... i'm talking about the one who i have inked up.

oh the story on my side has never been so true... without all the pain you still cause me, i wouldn't be able to appreciate the good person you once were.

i love you and you will always be the one that had my heart right from the start
... but now that i'm older i know - you will always be the one breaking it

anyways, enough of me being all emo nemo. i cried on erick's bed so much he's gonna think i pee'd on it. woops, i think so photo therapy might heal me now.